It has been a while since I posted on this blog.  But I've still been writing.  To my friends and to my family--with emails, facebook messages, and the like.

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It bothered me Monday, that I was clearly agitated by the combination of fatigue, my left eye astigmatism, the little tingles in my finger tips, and my overall restlessness.  It was relieved by wearing my eyeglasses on Tuesday and Wednesday.  And now I can't find them.  I last had them on before my workout with Gabi yesterday evening, so they can't have wandered far.  Yes, they are in my car.

The restlessness I felt was relieved by standing up.  I think the chemotherapy or the Neulasta made me feel antsy that night, like my hands and feet weren't there.  Instead, they were wandering off on their own out-of-body experiences without me.

I am happy.  Someone out there likes me despite my breast cancer, and who is to believe one wouldn't.  But the view of myself is not that high, since my last two loves ultimately rejected me for something else.  I still can't believe it.

God is taking care of me in numerous ways, and I like being back at work and feeling useful to my patients.  Leaning on Him again is turning out to be just the thing I need.